For parents who suffered birth trauma:  makebirthbetter.org has useful resources about birth trauma and further support. 

If you are feeling suicidal,  Maytree respite centre in North London might help you to make a difference in how you feel about yourself and your life:    https://www.maytree.org.uk/

The film about narcissistic abuse:     https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pfE-u2NzyQw&t=2008s